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It’s Been Awhile…

It’s been a long time coming I tell ya!!!. Busy with being a wife, a mother, a daughter, a best friend so on and so forth. But during that time I have found time to get back into working out and losing weight.

About two and a half years ago i was weighing in at 191. When I stepped on that scale I had so many emotions inside. I felt like I was a failure! Why you ask? Well i can remember being a teenager and saying to myself, “being over weight will not be an option for me, if i see myself anywhere over 200 lbs it’s time to get back into shape” So when i saw myself almost at 200 lbs i knew it was time to spring into action. And that I did. I signed up to weight watchers and also took a pre-workout supplement called “Oxy-Elite” which not only gave me the energy I needed for my workouts but it also supressed my appetite. Several months later i was down 20 lbs and let me tell you EVERYONE noticed.

Funds started to get a bit tight so i stopped weight watchers and stayed on oxy elite. I figured i would be fine now that my appetite was under control….so I thought. Anyway I eventually stopped taking oxy elite because you have to cycle off, other wise you will become immune and you will be just waisting your money. Well It became clear to me months down the road that I did not learn a new way of life. I simply relied solely on supplements and weight watchers. I went back to the same way of eating and not working out as much as I needed. And it really became evident last year when i began to have lower back pain, knee pain and all kinds of other pain which enabled me to do alot of the exercises i wanted to do. So not only was I not eating correctly i was also not active. With those two out of my life the weight slowly crept back into it. but not by alot. I never made it back to 191 but i was slowly creeping back to 180 which is now my “NO NO ZONE”

About 3 months ago I got back on weight watchers and about a month ago i have been deligent about eating right and exercising. Could it be because it’s warmer outside? WEll not exactly. Here in Kansas City the weather has been a bit off. Winter time in spring and spring time in summer. Very unpredictable. So going outside hasn’t really been an option. But my determination to stay motivated and eating healthier has been on the rise. And my desire is to share with you my journey!! So far i have made it all the way down to 165 lbs but have gain 5 lbs in muscles. My husband has noticed my transformation and so has my friends and family!! And now they all want to know how I have done it. That’s where my blog comes in at LOLImage

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Land Of Make Beleive

How do I read when you speak of me?
Frolicking in meadows, drinking from my melodic streams?
This is how I long for you to envision me in your dreams

Thoughts and feelings hid deep in your chest
Is it so deep and repressed that I am forced to guess?

Forced to tell my heart and body these make believe stories
Making myself believe that you’ve given me all your glory
All your love and emotion you have shown thee

See,
I awaken to discover the reality
You’re unable to even write poetry
About me
To explain to me
Expressions that you can express freely

No midday thoughts
No hidden lullabies’
Just morning salutations
And nightly goodbye’s

No thoughtful gifts
Or a sporadic kiss
Or a lustful stare at my hips and lips
That could possibly send your mind on a wondrous trip

No words that rhyme
For me to read to pass away my time
Deaming me your dime
Frequently lamenting “remember that one time?”

And no photo stills to replay in your mind
To hold in your pocket, like I do mine
To show off to friends talking bout “man ain’t she fine?”

This is what I see when I discover reality
Your inability to cleave to me passionately
To love me intensely

So I close my eyes and play pretend
Pretend that I am your air and you are my wind

In this state of mind I chose to deceive
That you and I are in the land of make believe

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